Sunday, April 23, 2006

The Reason I Started This Blog

I didn't know people would actually find it, I didn't know anything about Blogs a month ago. I am learning a little now. The reason I started writing here was because I kept losing shit I wrote on my computer.

I would write something and file it in a folder and then either delete it or lose it somehow. My computer is full of shit, programs, downloads, folders, folders in folders, there's a lot of stuff. I'm a packrat and save every little thing, then when I try to clean it I end up deleting a folder that had a folder in it with something I wrote.

So, a friend suggested that I just put all my stuff on a Blog and told me where to go to sign up. Everything I write stays here, I don't delete it by accident, cool.

The reason I write this stuff isn't because it's important, it's not really, only to me. I write mostly to myself and that keeps me honest, and that's what's important. If people like reading it, if they get something out of it, I think that's a bonus.

All the stories or thoughts I write here are rough outlines of what the story will eventually be. I find writing very difficult and only started doing it this past winter. There is so much more I could write into each thought or story but it takes everything I've got to get that little bit out. Hopefully I will get better with practice. You don't know how often I sit here with a fucking dictionary looking up a word...I had to look up dictionary for christ sakes.

My plan is to eventually get it all written, and then rewritten, and rewritten, until I get it out the way it is in my head. Then I will go to a Vanity Publisher and publish one copy of a book, it will be something for me to look at when I'm old and remembering being a Carny.

I know my days are numbered in this industry, the end is in site, a long chapter of my life is drawing to a close in the next couple years. All I have to show for it are my memories and my experiences, I decided I would write them before they fade with age, and they will.

When I die, they can put that book in the ground with me.

5 comments:

patita said...

I'm guessing you could have more of an audience for that book, if you were interested. Good luck with it, and give a holler if you want a hand with copy editing at some point.

Who Cares said...

Hey thanks Patita, I certainly will.

kim said...

a book about the true life of the carnival is definatly needed. i understand your comment about the memories and agree, i wish i could remember more of my time on the road, hopefully thanks to people like you, i'll never forget what i loved about it so much. let me know if u decide to print more than one cuz i'll take one for sure. With it and for it forever, Kim

Teacher said...

You are a great writer. It's descriptive and moving - that's good writing! Maybe you should consider life as an author after retirement. Think about it...your career could just be beginning! Please keep posting - I enjoy reading your thoughts and experiences!

John said...

I'm hoping you're still clean and sober; there really is a road to happy destiny, and I hope we're on it together. I've been on it almost thirty years.

When the time comes for you to leave the Show you have a world of wisdom, experience, strength and hope to share "in the rooms". I hope you do, and I hope we meet there some day.

Old soldiers aren't all that different from old carnies. Sometimes I actually miss living out of a duffel bag and an ALICE pack.

Please write the book. I write for a living and I'll be glad to help.